In the Middle

Its hard to get noticed when u are in the middle.
If you did something really great eg. Albert Einstein you get noticed.
If you did something super duper stupid eg. William Hung you get noticed.
If you are a genius, you get noticed.
If you are a spastic, you get noticed.
If you are relly beautiful/handsome, you get noticed.
If you are really really ugly, you'll also get noticed.

But if you are neither smart nor stupid, handsome nor ugly, well,
usually people won't notice you being there or not.

Just a thought.

Of Beauty and a Beast

On the backdrop of a beautiful sunset, except for the haze, arrived a beauty and a beast at the bus stop where i was waiting for my 900B RapidKL bus to return home after a long day at college.
One, was a beauty,wearing a peach coloured heels, clad with knee-length black skirt with flower patterns embroiled at the bottom, along with a grey collared t-shirt which fits perfectly onto her body,with skin as white and smooth as snow and the legs of supermodel model quality and also her smooth and silky shoulder length brunette hair flowing softly along as the wind blows portrayed an image of an angel from heaven. Her face carries the beauty that is incomparable to none living beings...
Another, a beast, wore an aged-old jeans that was too short to cover the whole of it's legs, showing the school time typed of white socks that it was wearing along with a grey multi-purpose sports shoe. It wore a white collared t-shirt that was obviously too big for its body and she wore spectacles with lenses thicker then my thumb. Furthermore, she managed to carry 2 bagpacks, one she carried on her back while another at the front, both filled with books to COLLEGE. (Have no idea what books, my whole life also don't have that many books to carry). And the worse part of all, although she was wearing a t-shirt with sleeves,her ARM-PIT hair manageed to grew out of it...EEWWWW and her face was filled with red spots and her nose, red like those of Ronald McDonald.

Then my bus came, and with the luck i'm having, guess which one went up the same bus as me...

Well, actualli, in truth, the girl that was suppose to be a beauty, she is pretty and matured-looking i guess, but my description may have been slighty exagerated, and well, the beast, also a girl, its not the first time she waited for the bus at the bus stop but i've never paid much attention to her till they both stood next to each other...
My point is that, she looks much much uglier when she is standing next to someone that is better looking and also that she makes the other girl like 10 times better looking.

New Sem Commenced!!

Harlo..Before bedtime post :)12.01am 2nd August 2006
Well, my new semester has officially started. Screw Metropolitan's management team. They went and change the time table in the last minute. I no longer have my 3 days/week college life anymore. My new schedules are as followed:
Monday 3.00pm-6.00pm
Tuesday 11.10am-12.40pm 2.45pm-5.45pm
Wednesday 11.10am-2.10pm 2.45pm-5.45pm
Friday 9.30am-11.00am 11.40am-1.10pm 2.15pm-3.45pm
Hhmm, I got Ms. Juliana for my Consumer Behavior sub. She is a good lecturer.She used to teach me Marketing which i got a Distinction. I think she's the only lecturer that can keep me awake for the whole 3 hours lecture everyweek. Guess her teaching style and the way she speaks is more lively, motivational and inspirational or maybe the subject is just interesting ;p
The problem with this new schedule is that i can no longer find for part-time job during my study time. Have to find alternatives to make money...Lottery?? Hehe..

Have to study hard this semester. Gambatei!!

Goin sleep now. Nitez

Good Morning!!

Once again, its 5.08 am 27th July 2006 and here I am again.

Well, in a few hours time, around 8 am have to go down to college to sign-up for my tutorials.Hopefully none of the classes is full yet. If everythin goes as planned, then I'll have a 3-days week classes. And although its 3 days only, its not really that packed. I have a 4-hour break on Monday. Gosh!! What the hell am i goin to do??
Anyway this is how my schedule goes:
Monday: 9.30am-11.00am 3.00pm-6.00pm
Tuesday: 9.30am-11.00am 11.40am-1.10pm 2.45pm-5.45pm
Wednesday: 11.10am-1.10pm 1.15pm-2.45pm 2.45pm-5.45pm

Oh Wednesday is a killer day, 11.00am till 6.00pm with only a 15 minutes lunch break. But hopefully no change to schedule.

Anyway, this holiday kinda make me felt like my time is up. It kinda give me the alarm rings that I'm no longer able to keep the carefree "anythin happens will happen" kind of attitude. I'm growing up, leaving my teenage life. What does this brings? Maturity and Responsibility.

Now that my holidays is ending, i looked back and realise I've wasted much time, caused much problems and have just been a lazy fella. Hopefully things will change to be better in the future. Its really time for me to grow up. Gotta be more mature in thinking. Furthermore gotta make sure my actions is in par with my thinking. No point all talk and no actions. Hopefully tomorrow, or i mean later will bring me a new day. A new start.

Well, i do have some plans about my life for the next 6 months. Hopefully i can keep to it. Not gonna talk about it in detail here. Maybe in the near-future, when its actually going as planned.

I think I am having sleeping problems. Keep waking up in the night. Hopefully when things gets better, so will my sleep.

Oh recently managed to download this song by Evonne Hsu: Ai Qing Kang Ti
I think its very nice. Something that i manage to keep it played on and on.
Too bad can't find the song to post it on my blog.

Early morning post..

Hi. Its 6.54 am 26th July 2006. I don't know what's wrong with me but i've had like four maybe five bad dreams tonight. It kinda keeps waking me up so i decided to wake up and blog.
Well, my Uni's gonna start soon. Next Monday to be exact. The subjects i would be taking next sem would most probably be :
1. Economics (Growth & Fluctuations)
2. Business Communications
3. Consumer Behaviour
4. Marketing Research
I failed my Law (Marketing) this semester, but Metropolitan only offer the subject once a year, means i can only retake the subject next year in Perth. Which means to be on schedule, i'll need to take summer course. Furthermore, my parents refuse to pay for my failed subject. So i need to fork out around Rm 1,800 myself which means i have to go find work some how...

Nothing like a nice cup of milo in the morning...uuummmm

Ok back to the blog..i don't know how this manage to creep up to me but suddenly i had this feeling that i do miss my secondary years a lot. Thinking back, i felt that my decision not to change my class from Jati to join Daniel Chee Weng & Joo yee at Kempas nor Calvin & Ka Seong at Keledang was the right decision. It was really fun for me to be in Jati. Really miss those days. Our class had a lil booklet we made about our class and the people in it. Was just flipping back at it just now. Those were really good time and good friends i've had. I'm still keeping contacts with some of them hopefully these friendship do last...

What do you do if you are in a forest and stucked between choosing the right and the left road. Both roads are identical but only one can bring you to safety. How do you choose without having to regret in the future? Regrets i have had a few in my life, and its a not something pleasant to have. So how do you choose when your heart is just as confused as ur head. Your thoughts and feelings is pointing at the middle, both refusing to choose side. What do you do? Time is running out.

I think i have the tendency to blog early early in the morning...

Update a bit...

Hello,
It's been quite some time again. Well, World Cup 2006 just ended a few days ago. The team that i supported, Italy won on penalty 5-3 after drawing at 1-1 with France for 120 mins. Yeah...After this, premier league will resume. Kinda worried bout Man U next season. No news of any new signings. Ruud might be leaving to Bayern and Ronaldo to Real Madrid. No news of progress in signing Diarra. Wonder wat's Ferguson thinking..Worse, Juventus might be relegated. Hopefully winning the World Cup might help. And hopefully Real Madrid, with the new management and signings may rise again.
Well, I have been terribly worried n afraid this couple of days. The type where u actualli can't sleep at nite. Its because my result is coming out this Wednesday. I'm realli worried that i might fail one of the subject, Law (Marketing). Usually those who knows me will know that normally i wouldn't even care, but i dunno why i'm gettin this feeling tis time. Izit a bad omen? hopefully not.

When a problem appears in our life, some will solve it and some will run avoid it while some will choose to ignore it. I'm not used to handling problems i can't solve. I'm an optimistic person, and i believe i am a person that can stay calm and find a solution to whatever problem i face. However, things seems to be changing nowadays. It seems like there is alwayz a problem that i can't solve and its giving me this pressure, its like keep askin me to avoid, ignore or run away from it. I'm doin my best. I stood up brave and met the challenge head on. It defeated me. I ran like a coward when i can't defeat it. I try to solve but the maze is so confusin i couldn't find the exit. Sad, what had happen to me...

N nobody knows it but me...

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A lil bit of everything.

Sunday afternoon, 18th June 2006.
Well, i'm currently having my finals. Left the last paper though. Its on the 20th June. Econs (markets). Its kinda like a harder more detailed version of micro econs. I've alwiz been confident with my econs so not much very there..hehe..mayb tat's y i'm slacking n bloggin ere instead of studyin.
Furthermore there's World Cup. So far it has been quite an interesting WC. Many last minute goals n come backs eg. Australia V Japan, Sweden V Paraguay etc etc
But tis mornin, my team, Italy drew with USA and the game had 3 red cards...hhmmma lil disappointed. Ghana surprisingly beat Czechs 2-0 though....
Dun think i need to put much details bout WC since most guys would know much about it anyway. But i do think this will b an interesting WC.
Have been playin back gunbound. Calvin, Chew, Amanda, Wern Hui, Ka seong all started playin also i think. My nick is "ammonitez" add me if u r interested.
Ka Seong n Alex is back from Aussie. Just saw them once tat day went out yam cha onli. Pei Fern is comin back too.

Some times dun u ever wonder why u did things tat u know its wrong but u r still doin it?
Just like smoking, so like everyone knows smoking cause cancer, so why do ppl still do it?
How bout murder? It obvious killing is a severe crime, yet u still c so many news about it on the paper. Those are like the major stuff..how bout smaller things? like when exam is near, i'm suppose to be studyin, yet i'm not. I know i'm doin the wrong thing by not studyin but i'm still doin it...y?? or like when ur gf sms u, u r suppose to reply but u didnt...so i ask myself y i'm doin the wrong things when its obvious it is wrong....y? n my brain just went blank...
20 years of knowledge and i can't ans a simple question...ironic dun u think...
or mayb sum1 tat's actualli readin tis could post me an ans....
hhmm...

Was with my frens the other day, they kinda talked bout being a "freeman" meaning no more gf to ask where he's goin or wat he's doin or havin to call/sms at a certain time or things like tat...another was sayin its lucky for us to be able to hav a gf...to hav some one to actualli ans all tis question...so apparently he doesnt hav a gf before n wishes to endure through all this things...
makes u kinda wonder bout which is better...
for me, i would definitely like to hav a gf if there are no clauses to it...but nuthin is perfect so i guess u hav to take some n give some...

Its kinda pressuring to be stuck in a relationship where your gf n ur family members do not get along. A lot of marriage i know fell apart because the parents n their in-laws disagrees with each other. A relative of mine recently breaks relationship with her mother because she divorced and remarries another guy n the mum disagree bout it.
So which do you choose? ur parents took care of u for the first half of ur life, giving u food clothin education n shelter, nourish u till u r old enuf to take care of urself while ur gf/wife would b with you for your other half of ur life, to accompany u till u r old, to take care of ur children, to bring u a cup of coffee in the nite n sit next to u n enjoy the bright starry nites...
so wat can u do? its a dilemma...to fulfill ur responsibility of being a child and take care of ur parents when they r old or to fulfill ur responsibility as a good bf/husband and put ur spouse's interest first?
guess life's not so easy after all...you know wat's the worse part of this problem? its all bout 2 parties, ur parents n ur spouse, wat happened to u urself? wat happen to wat u wanted? wat happen to who u r?